Hate!
Hate to be myself — I feel my heart’s deaf
Won’t be someone who love somebody I love
Be unkind to my self coz a kind of feeling that I cant left
Act like someone else in front, smile behind I wont
I hate to be like this – having my existence unfinished
Staring the shadow of someone I never know
Talkin’ to the night about all things I fight
Thinkin’ all things, all the time I wondering
How many times the feeling talking and crawling
Hate to be someone who left behind
My life my dream – my soul my mind
My hopefully love to the world I can’t hide
by penny (written in june 2007)
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step by step through this way
counting those grits where I lay
did u see me gone passed away??
did u see yourself never ignore your way?
I see tears and smiles day by day
wondering why all things happened beside my pray
here's nothing to say
in loud or silent way